one set of prints

where did you go, my friend...really....what is out there? is it better? worse? neither? is it even? i've been in a funk today...started off the day with a lot of driving and had in tunes that reminded me of you. what happened to our time? our plans? there's no wingman anymore...will never be another - i will be flying solo here on out...a lone warrior roaming, wondering, being. Your written thoughts seem to be gone sadly, taken by those who didnt deserve a sentence. But your vocal thoughts will live through those who knew and loved. who were there when they weren't and who will be long after they aren't. i will walk knowing you are walking with me.

hmmm so next year is here....its actually almost 1/3 done. 1/3! man! funny how weeks seem to turn to months faster than days turn to weeks. We lose track of the basic measurements and before you know it we are taling tallies in macro terms. its easter weekend. summer is around the corner and i hope to be on the bike alot this year. not sure about a trip for more than a weekend but some time away at least. need to find some projects this summer to keep busy. gonna be a big summer i think in other aspects. we've got a move coming and some good changes brewing. need to get some business stuff put away and firmed up as well if i am going to make this work. it seems like there is a huge opportunity right now to make it happen. time will tell.

friday night

a dimly lit coffee shop, sparsely populated as well. 913pm and the mix is one of singles. and some couple working on a pyramid idea that this time will work...and me- again. drinking black coffee and listening to Jamey Johnson...a refreshing new spin on old country. trying to focus on the hundred and nine things i still need to do, this week, this year....its almost impossible to determine where to start. sleep gets in the way, really. online, offline, reading, writing, planning, executing.....living. personal, professional, spiritual...it seems alot but everyone all have the same amount of time. i think the ones that realize their potential understand what not to focus on more so than worry about what to focus on. they instinctively filter out the wasteful stuff. they make use of the down time and ask themselves good questions. curly said it was about "one thing" worry about that and the rest don't mean shit....and that's what you've got to figure out. summer has come and gone. and it was great...as great as it could be without the road trip. Ottawa for the weekend doesn't really count. and as good as the day trip to Kingston was, it was only a day...next year. next year

sunday morning, sitting in my garage waiting for the rain to come....supposed to be a rainy Sunday and I am looking forward to it. some light errands, a little reading and work and time to prep for the upcoming motorcycle trip - a long overdue trip with your best friend. heading to North Carolina and Tennessee to ride some good roads. the Tail of the Dragon is supposed to be a great great ride. cant wait to get the tshirt! And it will be some much needed time away for the ordinary....to hopefully make some peace with the issues of the day and sort out the stringy mess some things have become.

until then, i continue to think about what i should do..but not really finding any clear cut answer...am i not thinking enough, understanding things enough, or do i really know the answer and am not acknowledging it....ugh....ahhh to be 6 again and to have problems end with the setting of the sun.

the city is coming alive from my little table on a starbucks patio...been doing that for a while i guess for the keeners.....keeners, as i sit here with my laptop, listening to tom peters on my ipod, drinking an extra bold coffee and having been up since 5am....where am i at right now? how long have i been asking that? have i ever really answered it? i am where i am, i guess....to ask if i am where i thought id be, my answer is that i never really thought i'd be anywhere in particular, so i guess the answer is yes...and no...i wanted to see myself as a coo, or something to that extent, so in a way i am. i just didnt think it would be of my own enterprise(s). which leads me i guess to wonder if i am running a "company" or just working a bunch of projects. that answer is easy. i need to shift my focus to be running a company.....or else i will just be working on projects.

its Sunday morning in my home town. been going since 6am. streets so quiet, sun just coming up. went to a friends grave - aren't i too young for that??? - ran into an old girlfriend - she looks good - and been sitting in Tim's for an hour and a half now...don't recognize anyone really...not really looking to though. small town Ontario doesn't have much to offer really....just get through your day. a place to retire, it seems. nice place to pass through on a bike trip, but wouldn't want to still be living here. who wold i have become if i had...it would have been something heavy to get me to stay here...don't actually think there is anything that heavy...always needed more than this town could offer. don't know why though. everyone else stayed here. why did i need to get away? don't feel i was running away from something though...more running towards. accomplishment, money, excitement, money

the question was asked about it there such a thing as luck. good one but isn't it just circumstance, opportunity, preparation and of course the biggest one of all - timing. luck implies no control, destiny, a preplanned occurrence. is one really lucky to be offered a job? they were at the right place at the right time (timing) and they were prepared (training, experience,etc). Finding 10 dollars - timing again and they were prepared (looking down). finding the love of your life...well people are as you make them, no? as you are ready to receive them. So does luck exist or is it just something that the romantics make up to justify or put meaning to, so that they can explain it in a way that makes them feel good.

sometimes i just wonder how people get through their day...things dont fire as quickly as they should with alot of people...technically that should make me a lot richer than i am, which begs the question:what am i waiting for?