fast times

the closing of another year is close at hand...and it will be a difficult one it seems. things are catching up....nothing that wasn't expected. but its the time to close them up and be able to move on fresh once it is put to bed with some embarrassment and shame, for knowing better and just not taking the time to keep up on the things that you need to keep up on...after all, is it not one of the two certainties in life?? 

and so must begin a new outlook and "strategy" on how things need to be done. i think it really sunk in when a few weeks ago, that age old idea of creating a 5 year plan saw the end of the plan with me being 50...that was a stunner! there is no way i could be 50 in only 5 years. what the hell?? I was just 30....wasn't I? But how is it that Scotty has been gone for a year and a half tomorrow....don't blink, because you will miss your life. you know it day to day but you don't really believe it until you get a punch in the face with something.

life is insane...and long....and short....and hard.....and good....and sad....and ecstatic...and tough.....and cool....and difficult.....and fun...but it is happening....every second of every day....do you know where you are (shout to matty :) ).  do others....what will be left when you are gone. will you be remembered? what will you have contributed, taught, bestowed, made a difference with?